I am left all alone at home again. So envious of everyone else who've had celebrations with family & friends.
Yeah we are not Christians but we can celebrate Christmas too, right? As usual, mom is out the whole day working her ass off, dad is home sporadically (funny description but very apt), & bro is happily celebrating with friends. & there I am, playing with helium balloons to entertain myself. Ooh the art of self-entertainment~
I am kind of sad that I don't have a clique anymore. I used to have one but as all of us proceed on with life together with the clashing schedules & geographical barriers (haha), clique disintegrates to individuals. But I'm very glad that I still feel close to them, as individuals, even though we hardly meet up throughout the year.
What's more saddening is seeing your friends moving on to form new cliques & there I am (again!), stranded at the same spot. While they celebrate with their new circle of friends, I am enviously watching alone.
"When can I not be alone anymore?"
I'm not sure getting used to being alone is good thing. Because you see, when you are used to something, you don't see the need to make any changes; & that perpetuates the situation. Which I don't mind but actually mind. Haiyaiyai! Pardon me, I'm a woman. I am complex.
Haha I am so glad I have this space here to talk to myself. Such a comforting avenue. Alright blog, I am going to talk to you more often. I have to keep my writing ability intact.
On a side note, I want/need to do so many things! I want to dye my hair, buy a new camera, a new hair tool, a new eye shadow palette & a new perfume. Unlimited wants. Everything changes, but never human nature.
Oh, have I mentioned that mom told me that a fortune teller (a good one okay!) said that in my previous life, I was a nun. When I was younger I was like "hmm.. Okayyy mom, I was a nun." But fast forward to today, I actually do feel that the fortune teller is quite psychic! The way I'm behaving is seriously like a nun. Kinda proving that human nature never changes, even over different lifetimes.
I would really like to blabber on but I am running out of content. Oh well.. Till tomorrow then.. :)
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